Michael Jackson Death Hoax Investigators
Latest News => TIAI => The Plan (Qanon, TIAI, BACK) => TIAI & TS Discussions => Topic started by: PinkTopaz on December 24, 2009, 01:37:46 PM
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Now, I have not exactly had time to read through the entire 9 posts yet, but I want to. However, I must say that all these posts about "Mike will not come back unless we do it right" are putting immense stress on me. I live with many siblings in a small apartment, and all of our money is put to good use, there's none to spare for extra things especially now with it being Christmas. I don't want to get too far into my personal life, but I must tell you all that my life is very busy and my mother is very busy all day and my father works and shops for groceries all day. We do not have an extra car, so we can't go anywhere while he's away, at this particular point in time we suspect that have a parasite infection going around the house. My parents and siblings need my help very often, so time on here, online, is not very much (not to mention our dial-up connection).
I first learned about this hoax as the Movie Theory in October, and I couldn't have been happier. Since tthe 25th I was depressed and crying often, but I felt guilty about it because I knew that it made my parents worry about me to see me so upset, and I always hate to put any extra stress than they already have on them. I had to deal with my own grief and hiding the true extent of it from them. I will admit, I even thought a tiny bit about suicide. I was desperate for Michael to come back in any way, I didn't care about anything else as long as he was alive and I could see him again. But now I've learned that this hoax is so very, very important. But if it is to the point where Michael's return depends on our actions, than I don't know what to do. I know that the hoax is much bigger and more important than my silly little life, but when things get stressful around here, especially with my mom (her and my father argue sometimes) I just wish he would come back more than anything, even though I know it's irrational.
So what do I do? I have no money of my own, no identification, no diplomas, I literally have not one friend besides my siblings, all that I live near are other apartments, a senior center, we do not speak with any family (at all) besides my brothers who have moved out, and our building is being sold and we may have to move out. When I read about this NWO stuff and the media's lies, I feel the importance, I feel inspired to do something, but what? I can't help with any of those big, important things, it all seems so very far out of my reach, yet everyone is saying "Michael needs your help, even if he doesn't come back, do something". I know I should, but what?! I will be a broken, shattered woman if he doesn't ever return, I'm sorry, and I want to see him and help him more than anything. What do I do?! Please help, someone..
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wow, i'm totally at a loss for words right now...
I think that just the fact that you are so willing to do something, but do not have the capacities to do so, says what a truly wonderful person you must be so big hugs to you.
Now maybe as you say you have no other friends besides your siblings and a little time you spend online, maybe you can just spread a positive message here or on any other online communities you visit on? It may not seem like much and you might feel frustrated that you can't in your opinion do more but to me you seem like a wonderfully caring person for even
thinking about these things while obviously you have enough issues of your own.
Just try to remain positive ,and be caring and giving and considerate in anyway possible for you
have a merry christmas and your family too :)
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Well, thank you so much, I feel very touched right now.. I've never really thought of myself that way before.. I suppose you're right, "Rome wasn't built in a day", eh? :mrgreen:
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Do what you can, when you can. Small steps lead to bigger leaps.
You dont need money to give. Think of it as changing your everyday actions in your heart... things like helping that little old lady across the road, giving a coin to the begger on the street and stopping and taking the time to smile and talk to him, etc,
I also find it hard to find time. I work at my job all the hours God sends. I will be at work tomorrow on Xmas Day... but i will find the time to visit my elderly neighbour to wish Merry Christmas and have a chat.
Dont be sad and dont be suicidal. Michael doesnt want that. Enjoy life and be happy... you only get once chance on this earth. Be grateful for what you have... you have a home, your health, a family, food to eat and a computer. Do you know how many people on this Earth consider YOU to be rich???
Count your blessings and see what you have that is good. Strive to change that what you can and learn to accept what you cannot change, we all have to deal with the hands we are dealt. We all have the power to change the parts of our lives we do not like.
I hope you understand what i am trying to say? Christmas blessings.
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I know that the hoax is much bigger and more important than my silly little life
No hoax in the world can be possibly bigger than ANY human life! Your life is NOT little or silly! Please do not think in this way! Your post is so sincere and so beautiful. And that's what Michael was all about - simple and beautiful. And right now things are just going out of hand, it's total madness. There's no need to go into frustration about the evilness of the world, because it's no that bad, really :) There are so many wonderful things in this world: nature, art, science, music, movies, holidays, just a morning breakfast with someone you love. Please hold on and remember there's always tomorrow when things can be better than today.
I wish you the merriest Christmas and the best wishes to you and your family. Every family can be a mess (i know for sure!), but in the end of the day it's those people that make us feel loved and needed. That's what matters!
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@PinkTropez
I hope you understand me.........
For me it is not easy, I have family and I spend a lot of time here in the forum but it relates to my life a ...... everyone must live and even his own life.
Your life is not stupid or worth less than MJS .....
Life can often be difficult but please there's always a way.
We love MJ but also have to live our own lives!
Michael would not want someone to give up in despair or lose!
Please if you need someone to talk then you can PM me .... I'll be there!
It certainly is for many here so we can support us OK?
All dear blessed Christmas for you
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PINK TOPAZ YOU HAVE MANY PROBLEMS OF YOUR OWN THEY MUST COME FIRST REMEMBER YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ,JUST SAY HELLO TO A STRANGER OR GIVE THEM A SMILE A SMILE CAN BRIGHTEN SOMEONES DAY :) AND I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS CHANCE TO WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND I HOPE THE NEWYEAR BRINGS YOU BETTER FORTUNE
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@ PinkTopaz
You can not just lock you MJ!
You live too ...... you have to get straightened out with your life ........ but you're living, too!
And no one gives you your life is not MJ
:)
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PinkTopaz,
First of all thanks for sharing such intimate details of your life with us; your life is not silly, every single life is precious and worthy, remember that. Michael is a strong believer of that, he showed us how much he cares about less lucky people and how important is to give .. it doesn't matter what you give, it doesn't have to be something material, like money, food or clothes; you could gift us with a smile, it would be the best gift EVER! You could smile to random people on the street, you could gift a homeless with your smile and this would be as important, if not more important, as money.
I wish I could gift you with my smile and a hug, I hope you can feel it even from a pc :)
Don't feel stressed, Michael would never want you to give more than what you can give, never!
Merry Christmas love ;)
If you need me I'm here ;)
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You are a loving person and caring person, that is clear in your post. You have the tools to make a difference in this world. If we all operate from a place of heart-felt love, we can start to heal the world. That was Michael's message. Simple acts of kindness, no matter how small, will change this world. That's where it starts. You matter. Michael would not judge us by the size of our contributions. You are loved.
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Hi, PinkTopaz. Like everyone here says, you can start small in your community. Be kind to others and volunteer when you can. Don't let the recent post stress you out. And your life is meaningful, I'm sure it is. I hope you have a nice holiday season. :) :)
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Hi Pink Topaz,
I'm sorry you feel so stressed out and believe me I know what stress and lack can do.I have no idea if you are interested but I am doing a video for all those who want to do something but don't have much time - it's all about intentions and manifestation and it's really easy to do , takes little time and can literally change your life around.I know things are hard right now but life is changing and our reality is going to change to have great meaning and love in all we do. It will be a joy to be awake.It will help Michael aswell as the world.I'm putting it on the forum so if you are interested I would love to know what you think about it if you watch it.I don't take credit for the idea I have just put it together.
Love to you
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You are a loving person and caring person, that is clear in your post. You have the tools to make a difference in this world. If we all operate from a place of heart-felt love, we can start to heal the world. That was Michael's message. Simple acts of kindness, no matter how small, will change this world. That's where it starts. You matter. Michael would not judge us by the size of our contributions. You are loved.
@dear pink topaz
i would like to tell you that you are such a very special admirable person as you care so much for your family
that is not to underestimate nowadays
i would love to get into contact with you
please send me a pm
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I don't have much of anything either, but what I do have is time. Tomorrow I intend to spend it wisely, doing something besides celebrating myself. I will make this Xmas my own and give my time to those who don't have much left. Sometimes something as simple as a smile, a hug, reading a story or just giving your presence to another lonely, hurting soul is worth its weight in gold. And guess what, it doesn't cost a thing ;)
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You don't need money to spread L.O.V.E.
Reading your post shows, that you have the right attitude already and your mental support and little actions are as much worth as anything else!
I wish you a wonderful Christmas with your loved ones!
Hugs to you and your family!
L.O.V.E.
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i think you should try to keep your head up.. MONEY was never an issue to Michael.. probably because he had it but he always gave a lot of it away!!
at the end of the day you have your family.. and now a little family on her!! everyone has there own personal struggles so try and be strong!! if you need a release i'm sure all the guys and gals on here will listen and support you!! including myself..
hope you have a great christmas.. and think of a better new year.. :) *hugs*
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Hi Pink Topaz
I was really touched by your post thanks for sharing. I think we all feel the same way you do at times. It is very easy to get stressed out when you think you have to do huge miraculous things to change someone's life. But when we do this, we over look that even the small things you can do to reach out to somone on a daily basis have a huge effect on an individual and the world. A smile, a helping hand, an ear to listen, someone to support you and let you know someone cares. When you can do more, then do more but these small gestures are miraculous too. If we give nothing more than the love that is on our heart it can light another's heart and let it shine and empower someone to new heights! We ALL deserve this because we are human. Because we are love. You don't have to look further than youself and be open to pass it along.
I wish you all the best Pink Topaz big ((hugs)) to you. let your light shine :)
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...and: remember where Michael came from! He lived in one room with his siblings, they were poor and had certainly the same trouble as you do!
Just look at him...
L.O.V.E.
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Dear Pink Topaz,
thank you very much for sharing your feelings and sorrow with our huge family... You can have support, friendship and understanding here.
The only thing I think I should tell you is: you are precious, your life is more precious than diamonds and pearls, every single moment of your life (just as mine and ours) is worth living...
Please, don't be sad for Michael, he is safe now, I'm sure of this...Be a support for your parents and siblings, as you have always been, and open up your heart to anyone needing your smile and love. You'll discover that love grows stronger whenever you give it... That's what I experienced myself... I'm not a little girl, I've been through some hard, very hard times, believe me, but God has helped me out and has given me the strength to support my family and myself in spite of hardship.
Don't forget, it's all for L.O.V.E.
Feel free to PM me whenever you want, you can rely on me, even though we are thousand miles away I can feel your heart beat...
Strong hug....
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Michael would already be proud of you at what a wonderful person you are.
I have alot respect for you after all that is going on in your life and to still have the strength and courage is really amazing I really admire that, you are a strong person. You can always help with small things you are already helping now with the type of person you are. You can help in any way possible.
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PinkTopaz, my friends and have all of us in this forum, thanks for sharing your experiences in this regard is that Michael needs us, we demand justice, until there can be peace Justice No, we should be supportive and above However, as is possible for any government in this world allows its citizens to live in the street, do not have acces to social security when the riches of their country, or my country or our country we are for all
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You can start by going to this website right now, http://mjawakening.wordpress.com (http://mjawakening.wordpress.com). And no, I do not own this. I have no part in this blog. I just think it can help you brighten your day just a bit which can alter your mood, which can change your thoughts, which sends positive energy throughout the Universe, which helps change you and the world for the better. See? It's that simple.
I'm sending my love and prayers to you and your family this holiday. Wish you the best! And please feel free to come to us when you're feeling sad or lonely.
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pinktopaz....first, I'd like to say "hello," 2nd, I'd like to say "thank you!" "thank you" for opening your heart and letting some of who you are out. Many people forget to do that and I believe it's part of why our world isn't as kind/loving/giving as it used to be. Just in the words you shared online I'm able to sense your spirit and I can tell you are are a kind, loving soul. I have never met MJ but for some reason I could always feel his kind, loving soul...just like yours. It is a rare thing to sense from someone nowadays so I'm blessed you came across my path. We all have to remember not to get wrapped up in MJ, the hoax, etc....as we have our own lives and people around us we need to share our LOVE with, just as Michael always did. I struggle with handling the thought of him dying...BUT more important is to learn what he taught us. LOVE OTHERS!! As the others mentioned, doing kind things does NOT cost money....actually, the kind gestures of opening a door for an elderly person, offering to carry their groceries, putting a "thank you" sticky note on the $ you give a cashier or teller, visiting nursing home, etc, etc....basically just be kind and absorb the LOVE from the smiles and shocked looks you receive. After hearing myself say that I realize I have some of the LOVE MJ was talking about inside of me, yet seem to have forgotten that lately. SIGH. Chin-up, pinktopaz....we are all glad you are here on this earth! God Bless you!! :)
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Pink Topaz, your life is precious, girl. I agree with what most of our members have posted here. You dont need money to make a change :). There are little things that can make someone smile and make their day. I would also tell you to spread all the love you can at home first. Maybe you can surprise your parents with something they like or that you know would make them happy? You don't have to spend money, but probably do something for them? It makes me really happy when my son does things at home when I least expect them. And yes, help and be nice to all the people you can. It will make you happy and satisfied as well. You will make a change, and help heal the world like Michael did, too. I hope your family feels better soon and my you have the merriest Christmas! Blessings.
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Wow... I am taken aback by the kindness of your words, all of you.. Thank you all, so much. I understand what you've said that some people would consider me rich, I hope I have not come off as ungrateful for what I do have, because i cherish it. I feel the Christmas spirit right now! I will do what I can to help Heal the World! It's just that I've been telling my siblings about the hoax, and i think i got their hopes up about tomorrow.. i hate to see them disappointed, i so wish he would return for xmas! Ah, I'll pray, and get to reading the whole TIAI..
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Merry Christmas, PinkTopaz !
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^ Same to you!
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You are not alone. You have so many friends here who feel for you and are here whenever you need to talk.
You are already doing more then you think, just by opening your heart... God Bless you and your family!
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Three Questions
Author: Leo Tolstoy
It once occurred to a certain king, that if he always knew the right time to begin everything; if he knew who were the right people to listen to, and whom to avoid; and, above all, if he always knew what was the most important thing to do, he would never fail in anything he might undertake.
And this thought having occurred to him, he had it proclaimed throughout his kingdom that he would give a great reward to any one who would teach him what was the right time for every action, and who were the most necessary people, and how he might know what was the most important thing to do.
And learned men came to the King, but they all answered his questions differently.....
All the answers being different, the King agreed with none of them, and gave the reward to none. But still wishing to find the right answers to his questions, he decided to consult a hermit, widely renowned for his wisdom.
The hermit lived in a wood which he never quitted, and he received none but common folk. So the King put on simple clothes, and before reaching the hermit's cell dismounted from his horse, and, leaving his body-guard behind, went on alone....
The King approached him, and said:
"For the last time, I pray you to answer my questions, wise man."
The hermit said:
Remember then: there is only one time that is important -NOW!- It is the most important time because it is the only time when we have any power. THE MOST NECESSARY MAN IS HE WITH WHOM YOU ARE, for no man knows whether he will ever have dealings with any one else: AND THE MOST IMPORTANT AFFAIR IS, to do him good, because for that purpose alone was man sent into this life!"
I want to share this beautiful story with you my friend. You have the force to make a difference in this world. You are important!!! YOU!
Remember, in any given moment we are making small and large decisions. Each decision is based on LOVE or FEAR. Choose love, follow your intuition, not intellect and follow your passion or "burning inner desire." Thought forms are very important and affect our everyday life. We create our reality with thought forms. If we think negative thoughts of others this is what we attract. If we think positive thoughts we will attract positive people and events.
Pink Topaz,
I wish you a very Merry Christmas and all the happiness for the new year!
Hugs and Love
p.s.Sorry for my english! :)
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Pink Topaz,
You are a wonderful person, just lovely and admirable, and there is no need at all to feel you ought to do something about NWO or other subjects.
Don't feel being set under pressure.
There are people proposing to do something - this does not mean 1) they are right 2) this is your path 3) this is the only path.
You are living love as you are thinking of your dearest first.
You are already doing so much good and bringing love and joy to the world.
If you want to add some more, think of prayers for poor souls.
And one truth I would like to share with you: you are being seen despite you don't think so.
And you will get all you will need. Whenever a door is being closed, another opens up - and sometimes in the strangest ways with more beauty and meaning and help than you thought of.
For your personal worries, don't worry no more. It will go away. You will see. Think with a smile and you'll see there are miracles ahead.
Thank you for sharing with us and calling us. Never hesitate to do so again.
Merry Christmas to you and your dearest and feel being embraced dearly.
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Merry Christmas Pink Topaz!
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please know you are never ever alone pink topaz you have so much love to give your post makes that very clear and should you ever need somebody to talk to you can confide in me xmerry christmas to you and yours and keep the faith :D
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Wow... I am taken aback by the kindness of your words, all of you.. Thank you all, so much. I understand what you've said that some people would consider me rich, I hope I have not come off as ungrateful for what I do have, because i cherish it. I feel the Christmas spirit right now! I will do what I can to help Heal the World! It's just that I've been telling my siblings about the hoax, and i think i got their hopes up about tomorrow.. i hate to see them disappointed, i so wish he would return for xmas! Ah, I'll pray, and get to reading the whole TIAI..
Just wanted to show this post in case y'all didn't see it. I'm tearing up at your replies over here.. thank you all.. And you guys don't need to apologize about your English, I get ya.. I've heard about the whole positive energy thing, my mom always talks about it. I'll keep on hopin' for Michael to return to us, to lead the way, and enjoy Christmas for now. TeddyBear, thank you for that nice story!
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I wanted to say hello, I'm new on here and for some reason I read your post first. I want you to know that you are not alone in this world. I know how you feel. I am a single mother and work my behind off everyday just to put food on my table to feed my daughter. I too sometimes feel like the world is weighing down on me. I stay depressed and cry alot. I lost my best friend 2 years ago and my mom just a year ago this January. and on top of it Michael felt the need to leave us also. and just days before my birthday. I didn't write to compare sweetie, I just wanted you to know I feel your pain. But also I want to tell you. You are not just a small piece in this world. You can make a difference. Your a very important part of all of this. Your love for Michael seems true and loyal. And just knowing that should be enough. He doesn't want money, remember that, he want's love, understanding, trust, happiness, and for all of us to take care of each other. Please believe that your life is important, not only to you but to all your siblings, your parents, and all of us. I lost my husband to suicide and it's been rough, but I never got the chance to tell him what I'm telling you. Don't drop your head and think that no one cares, WE ALL DO. I will be your friend. Stand up be proud, smile and most of all, be true and make a difference in your world. Someday someone might be feeling the same way. And they may need you. just small things matter. Smile when you walk past someone, do what you can with love and respect towards others. Even if it is your siblings, You will go far. Just believe in yourself.
I do.
PS. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas. and I hope you feel a little better. people are slow sometimes when it comes to stepping up. but that doesn't mean we don't care. Most are scared to say anything. I use to be.
Have a safe holiday. and email me any time.
Peace and Love always.
thats what Michael wants. Peace and Love.
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^Welcome to the forums and thank you very much! I did have a good Christmas!
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It's okay,dear. You do not need material things to spread love around to others. I can tell you have a beautiful heart and will do that. You already have by being so loving to your family. I hope that you had a wonderful christmas and more to come. Things will get better. Just believe in yourself and keep your head up high. If there is a way that I can help you, please let me know. You can PM me.
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Pinktopaz, do not feel sad. No money in the world can change the world, but only all the love in the world will change the world. Do not pressure yourself. Everyone has different abilities were they can express all their love to. We are all here for you! We all love you. You are a precious being, with a great heart that can see things that people may not see. Do not lose hope. I love you. I will pray for your situation. God sees your pain and he's gonna make it better. Cheer up because it might night time right now with no hope, but tomorrow the sun will shine giving you hope to keep on going. Take care....
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I want to tel you all again how grateful I am to have so many friends here. I love MJ and my families- here at home and on this forum- so much. The NWO and Illuminati scare the heck out of me and I pray that they never harmed our Michael, i pray.. but reading about it just gives me more fuel to want to bring them down! Thank you all again!
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I'm maybe a little too late here :oops: But I just want you to know how beautiful your words are PinkTopaz... You are truly a wonderful person and nothing is better than this. You have a family who loves you and that you love. Money can't compare to this ...
And now you have all of us including Michael ;) So if you have any thoughts you wanna share, we here for you ...
I wish you all a merry christmas and a happy new year :)
I'm giving you big hugs ... take care!
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Pink Topaz, I am truly surprised that with all your troubles, you still think of others. What a truly beautiful spirit. But remember that change can also come from within. Cherishing yourself and life must come before everything. To make your mark doesn't have to be big. If you can, do a little more for the family, reassure them of your love and devotion. Use your giving spirit to lighten their day. It may not seem like much, but it can make a world of difference to their day. One Love.
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^thank you so much.. i do cherish them, and all i have.
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@ Pinktopaz
I dont even know where to start here Hun... Gosh, you know it dont always have to come down to money you know, it start's with your inner person. From what I have read your inner person is great!! If you are always kind, well intentionned, aware of other's feelings, well to me you are doing your share. That is what Michael is talking about you know, if everyone was a nice person the world would be a much better place. There would be a lot less suffering, no wars, we would all be aware of the global warming issue and if everyone would adress it we'd be on the right track here.
Sweety you got your hands full yourself, dont worry about not doing enough. I can't possibly imagine Michael would expect you to turn your back on your family to help his issue 1st then yours after. It all starts at home, you are good to your family and show them the example of goodness and then someday they will be showing others the same example they got at home, it's a snowball effect!
Bless you hunny and good luck:) Just hang in there, I am sure it is not easy but please hang in.
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@ Pinktopaz
I dont even know where to start here Hun... Gosh, you know it dont always have to come down to money you know, it start's with your inner person. From what I have read your inner person is great!! If you are always kind, well intentionned, aware of other's feelings, well to me you are doing your share. That is what Michael is talking about you know, if everyone was a nice person the world would be a much better place. There would be a lot less suffering, no wars, we would all be aware of the global warming issue and if everyone would adress it we'd be on the right track here.
Sweety you got your hands full yourself, dont worry about not doing enough. I can't possibly imagine Michael would expect you to turn your back on your family to help his issue 1st then yours after. It all starts at home, you are good to your family and show them the example of goodness and then someday they will be showing others the same example they got at home, it's a snowball effect!
thank you for the beautiful post! I try my best to help Michael and my family, I'm so proud of all of them!
Bless you hunny and good luck:) Just hang in there, I am sure it is not easy but please hang in.
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@Pinktopaz,
since you know about the NWO, you must realize what their plan is....they want people to be immoral, they want people to be self-pitiying..they wnat people to die..how can they reach this goal? One way I see it through MJ-death..i heard 15 people committed suicide over him, and also you wrote disturbing things...i was one of the many who didnt eat, nor sleep nor live my life happily after...i was mentally dead for weeks(also cause I saw NWO)..i was a complete wreck..hopeless...thought about doing something, but we live in a system where we are not allowed to make a step into action alone..only with many people action will help...but we are not in that situation yet...
They want as many people dead as possible..so dont fall fo them...the new Rihanna song "russian roulette" is also crazy cause it suggests commiting suicide..
They want us kill our spirits..our souls..believe bodies are nothing against the pure soul..thats why we have to be strong...I was so afraid at first, but now I can only share love with the good-hearted and even pray for the betrayed to change their way...until its too late and God will send Jesus...