What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

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What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 02:37:46 PM
Now, I have not exactly had time to read through the entire 9 posts yet, but I want to. However, I must say that all these posts about "Mike will not come back unless we do it right" are putting immense stress on me. I live with many siblings in a small apartment, and all of our money is put to good use, there's none to spare for extra things especially now with it being Christmas. I don't want to get too far into my personal life, but I must tell you all that my life is very busy and my mother is very busy all day and my father works and shops for groceries all day. We do not have an extra car, so we can't go anywhere while he's away, at this particular point in time we suspect that have a parasite infection going around the house. My parents and siblings need my help very often, so time on here, online, is not very much (not to mention our dial-up connection).

I first learned about this hoax as the Movie Theory in October, and I couldn't have been happier. Since tthe 25th I was depressed and crying often, but I felt guilty about it because I knew that it made my parents worry about me to see me so upset, and I always hate to put any extra stress than they already have on them. I had to deal with my own grief and hiding the true extent of it from them. I will admit, I even thought a tiny bit about suicide. I was desperate for Michael to come back in any way, I didn't care about anything else as long as he was alive and I could see him again. But now I've learned that this hoax is so very, very important. But if it is to the point where Michael's return depends on our actions, than I don't know what to do. I know that the hoax is much bigger and more important than my silly little life, but when things get stressful around here, especially with my mom (her and my father argue sometimes) I just wish he would come back more than anything, even though I know it's irrational.

So what do I do? I have no money of my own, no identification, no diplomas, I literally have not one friend besides my siblings, all that I live near are other apartments, a senior center, we do not speak with any family (at all) besides my brothers who have moved out, and our building is being sold and we may have to move out. When I read about this NWO stuff and the media's lies, I feel the importance, I feel inspired to do something, but what? I can't help with any of those big, important things, it all seems so very far out of my reach, yet everyone is saying "Michael needs your help, even if he doesn't come back, do something". I know I should, but what?! I will be a broken, shattered woman if he doesn't ever return, I'm sorry, and I want to see him and help him more than anything. What do I do?! Please help, someone..
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 02:48:46 PM
wow, i'm totally at a loss for words right now...
I think that just the fact that you are so willing to do something, but do not have the capacities to do so, says what a truly wonderful person you must be so big hugs to you.
Now maybe as you say you have no other friends besides your siblings and a little time you spend online, maybe you can just spread a positive message here or on any other online communities you visit on? It may not seem like much and you might feel frustrated that you can't in your opinion do more but to me  you seem like a wonderfully caring person for even
thinking about these things while obviously you have enough issues of your own.
Just try to remain positive ,and be caring and giving and considerate in anyway possible for you
have a merry christmas and your family too :)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 02:50:38 PM
Well, thank you so much, I feel very touched right now.. I've never really thought of myself that way before.. I suppose you're right, "Rome wasn't built in a day", eh?  :mrgreen:
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 04:39:10 PM
Do what you can, when you can.  Small steps lead to bigger leaps.
You dont need money to give.  Think of it as changing your everyday actions in your heart...  things like helping that little old lady across the road, giving a coin to the begger on the street and stopping and taking the time to smile and talk to him, etc,

I also find it hard to find time.  I work at my job all the hours God sends. I will be at work tomorrow on Xmas Day... but i will find the time to visit my elderly neighbour to wish Merry Christmas and have a chat.

Dont be sad and dont be suicidal.  Michael doesnt want that.  Enjoy life and be happy... you only get once chance on this earth.  Be grateful for what you have... you have a home, your health, a family, food to eat and a computer.  Do you know how many people on this Earth consider YOU to be rich???

Count your blessings and see what you have that is good.  Strive to change that what you can and learn to accept what you cannot change,  we all have to deal with the hands we are dealt.  We all have the power to change the parts of our lives we do not like.

I hope you understand what i am trying to say?   Christmas blessings.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 04:44:26 PM
Quote from: "PinkTopaz"
I know that the hoax is much bigger and more important than my silly little life

No hoax in the world can be possibly bigger than ANY human life! Your life is NOT little or silly! Please do not think in this way! Your post is so sincere and so beautiful. And that's what Michael was all about - simple and beautiful. And right now things are just going out of hand, it's total madness. There's no need to go into frustration about the evilness of the world, because it's no that bad, really :) There are so many wonderful things in this world: nature, art, science, music, movies, holidays, just a morning breakfast with someone you love. Please hold on and remember there's always tomorrow when things can be better than today.

I wish you the merriest Christmas and the best wishes to you and your family. Every family can be a mess (i know for sure!), but in the end of the day it's those people that make us feel loved and needed. That's what matters!
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 04:52:57 PM
@PinkTropez
I hope you understand me.........
For me it is not easy, I have family and I spend a lot of time here in the forum but it relates to my life a ...... everyone must live and even his own life.

Your life is not stupid or worth less than MJS .....
Life can often be difficult but please there's always a way.
We love MJ but also have to live our own lives!
Michael would not want someone to give up in despair or lose!

Please if you need someone to talk then you can PM me .... I'll be there!

It certainly is for many here so we can support us OK?
All dear blessed Christmas for you
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 04:56:45 PM
PINK TOPAZ YOU HAVE MANY PROBLEMS OF YOUR OWN THEY MUST COME FIRST REMEMBER YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ,JUST SAY HELLO TO A STRANGER OR GIVE THEM A SMILE A SMILE CAN BRIGHTEN SOMEONES DAY  :) AND I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS CHANCE TO WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND I HOPE THE NEWYEAR BRINGS YOU BETTER FORTUNE
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:02:17 PM
@ PinkTopaz
You can not just lock you MJ!
You live too ...... you have to get straightened out with your life ........ but you're living, too!
And no one gives you your life is not MJ

 :)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:10:11 PM
PinkTopaz,
First of all thanks for sharing such intimate details of your life with us; your life is not silly, every single life is precious and worthy, remember that. Michael is a strong believer of that, he showed us how much he cares about less lucky people and how important is to give .. it doesn't matter what you give, it doesn't have to be something material, like money, food or clothes; you could gift us with a smile, it would be the best gift EVER! You could smile to random people on the street, you could gift a homeless with your smile and this would be as important, if not more important, as money.
I wish I could gift you with my smile and a hug, I hope you can feel it even from a pc  :)
Don't feel stressed, Michael would never want you to give more than what you can give, never!
Merry Christmas love  ;)
If you need me I'm here  ;)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:23:57 PM
You are a loving person and caring person, that is clear in your post. You have the tools to make a difference in this world. If we all operate from a place of heart-felt love, we can start to heal the world. That was Michael's message. Simple acts of kindness, no matter how small, will change this world. That's where it starts. You matter. Michael would not judge us by the size of our contributions.  You are loved.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:40:05 PM
Hi, PinkTopaz. Like everyone here says, you can start small in your community. Be kind to others and volunteer when you can. Don't let the recent post stress you out. And your life is meaningful, I'm sure it is. I hope you have a nice holiday season. :)  :)

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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:43:25 PM
Hi Pink Topaz,
                      I'm sorry you feel so stressed out and believe me I know what stress and lack can do.I have no idea if you are interested but I am doing a video for all those who want to do something but  don't have much time - it's all about intentions and manifestation and it's really easy to do , takes little time and can literally change your life around.I know things are hard right now but life is changing and our reality is going to change to have great meaning and love in all we do. It will be a joy to be awake.It will help Michael aswell as the world.I'm putting it on the forum so if you are interested I would love to know what you think about it if you watch it.I don't take credit for the idea I have just put it together.

            Love to you
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:49:29 PM
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You are a loving person and caring person, that is clear in your post. You have the tools to make a difference in this world. If we all operate from a place of heart-felt love, we can start to heal the world. That was Michael's message. Simple acts of kindness, no matter how small, will change this world. That's where it starts. You matter. Michael would not judge us by the size of our contributions.  You are loved.
@dear pink topaz

i would like to tell you that you are such a very special admirable person as you care so much for your family

that is not to underestimate nowadays

i would love to get into contact with you
please send me a pm
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 05:57:08 PM
I don't have much of anything either, but what I do have is time.  Tomorrow I intend to spend it wisely, doing something besides celebrating myself.  I will make this Xmas my own and give my time to those who don't have much left.  Sometimes something as simple as a smile, a hug, reading a story or just giving your presence to another lonely, hurting soul is worth its weight in gold.  And guess what, it doesn't cost a thing ;)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 06:03:19 PM
You don't need money to spread L.O.V.E.
Reading your post shows, that you have the right attitude already and your mental support and little actions are as much worth as anything else!

I wish you a wonderful Christmas with your loved ones!
Hugs to you and your family!

L.O.V.E.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 06:31:14 PM
i think you should try to keep your head up.. MONEY was never an issue to Michael.. probably because he had it but he always gave a lot of it away!!

at the end of the day you have your family.. and now a little family on her!! everyone has there own personal struggles so try and be strong!! if you need a release i'm sure all the guys and gals on here will listen and support you!! including myself..

hope you have a great christmas.. and think of a better new year.. :) *hugs*
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 07:36:15 PM
Hi Pink Topaz

I was really touched by your post thanks for sharing.  I think we all feel the same way you do at times.  It is very easy to get stressed out when you think you have to do huge miraculous things to change someone's life.  But when we do this, we over look that even the small things you can do to reach out to somone on a daily basis have a huge effect on an individual and the world.  A smile, a helping hand, an ear to listen, someone to support you and let you know someone cares.  When you can do more, then do more but these small gestures are miraculous too.  If we give nothing more than the love that is on our heart it can light another's heart and let it shine and empower someone to new heights!  We ALL deserve this because we are human.  Because we are love. You don't have to look further than youself and be open to pass it along.
I wish you all the best Pink Topaz big ((hugs)) to you.  let your light shine :)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 07:43:39 PM
...and: remember where Michael came from! He lived in one room with his siblings, they were poor and had certainly the same trouble as you do!
Just look at him...

L.O.V.E.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 07:53:45 PM
Dear Pink Topaz,
thank you very much for sharing your feelings and sorrow with our huge family... You can have support, friendship and understanding  here.
The only thing I think I should tell you is: you are precious, your life is more precious than diamonds and pearls, every single moment of your life (just as mine and ours) is worth living...
Please, don't be sad for Michael, he is safe now, I'm sure of this...Be a support for your parents and siblings, as you have always been, and open up your heart to anyone needing your smile and love. You'll discover that love grows stronger whenever you give it... That's what I experienced myself... I'm not a little girl, I've been through some hard, very hard times, believe me, but God has helped me out and has given me the strength to support my family and myself in spite of hardship.
Don't forget, it's all for L.O.V.E.
Feel free to PM me whenever you want, you can rely on me, even though we are thousand miles away I can feel your heart beat...
Strong hug....
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 07:55:38 PM
Michael would already be proud of you at what a wonderful person you are.
I have alot respect for you after all that is going on in your life and to still have the strength and courage is really amazing I really admire that, you are a strong person. You can always help with small things you are already helping now with the type of person you are. You can help in any way possible.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 08:35:05 PM
PinkTopaz, my friends and have all of us in this forum, thanks for sharing your experiences in this regard is that Michael needs us, we demand justice, until there can be peace Justice No, we should be supportive and above However, as is possible for any government in this world allows its citizens to live in the street, do not have acces to social security when the riches of their country, or my country or our country we are for all

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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 09:58:38 PM
You can start by going to this website right now, http://mjawakening.wordpress.com. And no, I do not own this. I have no part in this blog. I just think it can help you brighten your day just a bit which can alter your mood, which can change your thoughts, which sends positive energy throughout the Universe, which helps change you and the world for the better. See? It's that simple.

I'm sending my love and prayers to you and your family this holiday. Wish you the best! And please feel free to come to us when you're feeling sad or lonely.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 10:40:32 PM
pinktopaz....first, I'd like to say "hello,"  2nd, I'd like to say "thank you!"  "thank you" for opening your heart and letting some of who you are out.  Many people forget to do that and I believe it's part of why our world isn't as kind/loving/giving as it used to be.  Just in the words you shared online I'm able to sense your spirit and I can tell you are are a kind, loving soul.  I have never met MJ but for some reason I could always feel his kind, loving soul...just like yours.  It is a rare thing to sense from someone nowadays so I'm blessed you came across my path.  We all have to remember not to get wrapped up in MJ, the hoax, etc....as we have our own lives and people around us we need to share our LOVE with, just as Michael always did.  I struggle with handling the thought of him dying...BUT more important is to learn what he taught us.  LOVE OTHERS!!  As the others mentioned, doing kind things does NOT cost money....actually, the kind gestures of opening a door for an elderly person, offering to carry their groceries, putting a "thank you" sticky note on the $ you give a cashier or teller, visiting nursing home, etc, etc....basically just be kind and absorb the LOVE from the smiles and shocked looks you receive.  After hearing myself say that I realize I have some of the LOVE MJ was talking about inside of me, yet seem to have forgotten that lately.   SIGH.  Chin-up, pinktopaz....we are all glad you are here on this earth!  God Bless you!! :)
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 11:09:17 PM
Pink Topaz, your life is precious, girl.  I agree with what most of our members have posted here.  You dont need money to make a change :).   There are little things that can make someone smile and make their day.   I would also tell you to spread all the love you can at home first.    Maybe you can surprise your parents with something they like or that you know would make them happy?  You don't have to spend money, but probably do something for them? It makes me really happy when my son does things at home when I least expect them.   And yes, help and be nice to all the people you can.  It will make you happy and satisfied as well.  You will make a change, and help heal the world like Michael did, too.  I hope your family feels better soon and my you have the merriest Christmas!  Blessings.
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Re: What Can I Do? I Am Poor and Busy and Feel Helpless

  • on: December 24, 2009, 11:30:54 PM
Wow... I am taken aback by the kindness of your words, all of you..  Thank you all, so much. I understand what you've said that some people would consider me rich, I hope I have not come off as ungrateful for what I do have, because i cherish it. I feel the Christmas spirit right now! I will do what I can to help Heal the World!   It's just that I've been telling my siblings about the hoax, and i think i got their hopes up about tomorrow.. i hate to see them disappointed, i so wish he would return for xmas! Ah, I'll pray, and get to reading the whole TIAI..
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